The world 'is' because 'I' feel it!

Love can manifest in numerous ways. While referring to love, I would revert to the age old understanding of love, i.e. a relationship, primarily romantic in nature. My attempts to understand what 'love' means has failed numerous times. What is love? What is it about love that makes it the whole world? Why is a person so important, even when he/she puts you in agony? Why is it that a person, whom you love, makes you happy? In that case you love yourself more and you know that the person makes you happy, and that is why you love that particular person. Is love a cosmic manipulation of the stars or an attraction or just an extension of a good partnership. Can love overshadow a good companionship?  Falling in love is very easy, but sustaining the feelings and being in love to carry forward the togetherness is certainly a herculean task. The new age mantra of love highly requires the statement- ' my partner should be understanding'!! It certainly does depict the primacy o...

The boggled mind and the confused soul. The lack of confidence in self and tired of feeding you whole. An exhausted soul, subsumed by thoughts. Lost trust and no zeal at all. Such thoughts are not alien and at one point engulfs all, The urge to solve issues when the mind knows nothing at all. A defeated brain which can't take any decisions, and a confused soul which has forgotten thy self. Just take a break- pack our bags and go away from the things you love the most. Leave for another coast; not in the hub with the majority of the crowd, Go far away to a place, with the least, and things unknown. Take a lovely mate, who knows you complete. Take a bag with minimum, but heaps of self confidence to experience it all. The morning run and the clear breeze refreshes your mind and reminds you what it means to be alive, the bare minimum helps you realize you have it all, with a good mate to get peace to clear it all. Life may get defined by your accomplishments and r...

As time passes the distance grows, A deep vaccum culminating, and you call me your foe. Hailing accusations and failing claims. Makes it better to disconnect with you and be away. The time has come when everything is cold. Each others presence is a burden that is unbearable to tow, A cry for help is presumed to be fake; adding on to the distance and creating more space. The deep passion and undoubted faith, are a talk of the past and missing from our fate. Ending seems easier than letting it grow. But you assess, how much can you suffer- if you let it grow? Is it a bad phase that will just linger for sometime, and cease after some flow? Like seasons change; feelings have changed too. What was special has no value. The vows to make it work seem redundant. The world know more about 'You', than 'I' do! The frustrations slowly turning into numbness, where shunning the feelings seem better and now I ignore U. Something special has turned apologetic and r...

Act of valour, and the strength to stand tall, The persistent faith when everything falls. The emotional setback, that never pulled you down. The ‘mute’ self who is observant, and is concerned about all. The selflessness and the courage to brave it through. Fighting with spirit and maintaining the levelheadedness; even when you have lost it all, Restoring the faith of the people and making them believe that you will break their fall. The caring attitude, when you need caring too. Ignoring your own wounds; when they need healing too. The efforts to fix others when you need someone to take care of you. The intense battle to fight your insecurities when showing them off is easy, as these emotions come naturally to you. Dedication, loyalty, conviction, brave-heart, kindness, gentleness, morality.. Are some attributes that define, but can never encapsulate the emotions that make you. Certain attributes that inspire me, building a conviction and faith to go beyo...

The flamboyant person with an 'I Care a Damn Attitude', A bold personality, who has suffered and gone a lot too, The fighting spirit, the rugged attitude, Making you seem like a person that everyone would want to be too. The velocity to start something, is driven by an excitement and aggression- which grabs your attention and pushes you to achieve too, However in due course you change and the steam runs away. Is it the fading interest or the conflicting issues diverging you from your aim? Is it the lack of faith within or a fickle mind? Which makes you squander and creates an unrest. It makes you squander and builds a volcano that erupts and burns everyone next to you. Is you attitudinal indifference a part of a conflict within and raging a war within you? Your rigidity and stubbornness- a conspiracy to destroy yourself or punish the ones that love you? The staunch belief that your loved ones are you enemies in this war too, It isolates you from everyone who lov...

I give, not because I have, I give not because I need to prove myself, I give not because I am kind, I give not because I can, I give because I have lost it all- a deep feeling of helplessness and fall, I know how misery strikes and I attempt to stand tall, I give because seeing someone 'smile' helps me heal, Healing my wounds and staggering faith, guided by a mean intention- that someday someone will also 'give' me and break my fall.

The sparkling smile, the bubbly talks, The endearing dares, the lonely walks, The electrifying person who is the talk of the crowd, The bold personality which seems to counter any jolts. The personified strengths that people admire, The struggle to walk tall, when everyone falls, The reflections of a strong heart, when inside everything is torn, which no one can see but drowns you all. It is also when you realize, how much it hurts, Removing the masks and baring to self, You hit the bed, realizing that complete energy has drained to fake it all- showing you are 'strong' and not broken at 'all'.

With a heavy heart we part, A heavy lump in my throat; stopping me to convey to you the depths of my heart that needs to be unfold, The burden to be away from you- the thought of the vaccum , and the fear of someone taking my way through. The distraught feeling of being excluded, makes me weak and deluded. The inability to be a part of your life weighs a burden that you don't understand. The lonely nights, the sole support; Made me my only friend and depicts the struggle to be my only hope, The yearning to be held by you- might not seem significant to you. But that was the sole motivation for fighting the insecurities and sailing through, Alas! the time has come to be with you. That makes me wonder, whether the real you is important or the predominant dream of being with you? Just as sending you away was the hardest thing, accepting you with  differences seems the same too.

The longingness creeps-in, making me itch and creating a tempest, A struggling self to seek comfort, Going beyond the sparkling smile, the attempts to hide the turbulent  soul, The thoughts that make me seek you 'WHOLE'. The longing parts of me shouting your name, Which only I can hear and dodges the others, Every prayer said while returning to bed- ends with the thoughts of you being safe, and me longing to be with you, Seeking a  hug that completes 'me', and reinforcing the intense feeling of being with 'YOU'!

Sometimes you just look around and wonder, if everybody fights the same battles, A battle when your head and heart just gives up, Seeking solace in something or someone- who brought the unrest, Deep down within the fight- a struggle to keep away from you. The day begins with the fathom, the strength to forgive and forget. However, as dusk seeps-in; the emotions creep-in, Making you brittle, making you weak, Fighting within, struggling beyond- what was the strength and what made you strong, A fight within, to be with the comforting arm, Surrounded underneath the person that made you feel strong.

                                                   The world 'is' because 'I' feel it!  For me, the sense of 'oneself' is most important. The creation and development of the sense of 'self' is very important. The struggles and the successes are are important to the development of self. But one important thing that I ardently believe is- the strength of an individual, and the way a person views and perceives things- the opportunities, the threats, the thoughts or the environment. The whole process of how one deals with, the situations and issues, determines what the world seems to an individual. The aim is to encapsulate the various emotions and situations that impact the personality of a person. Driving them to certain actions, which at one point, would  be unthinkable to thy self. Highly driven by the emotional interactions, I would like to shar...